I’m realizing as I crash that I’m like 40x needier when I’m depressed. I want attention! So that sucks for everyone. But realizing it and stopping is good? Know thyself I guess? Even if I don’t act on it I still feel it but not buying into it definitely better in the long run.
I’m thinking it’s because my brain is trying to get its reward/happy chemical fix in any way possible so it’s like “get praISE AND VALIDATION NOW” because those things give me short bursts of serotonin and dopamine.
But anyway yeah depressive episode. I just want to sleep but I can’t afford to slip any more than I already have.
I’m realizing as I crash that I’m like 40x needier when I’m depressed. I want attention! So that sucks for everyone. But realizing it and stopping is good? Know thyself I guess? Even if I don’t act on it I still feel it but not buying into it definitely better in the long run.
I’m thinking it’s because my brain is trying to get its reward/happy chemical fix in any way possible so it’s like “get praISE AND VALIDATION NOW” because those things give me short bursts of serotonin and dopamine.
I’m realizing as I crash that I’m like 40x needier when I’m depressed. I want attention! So that sucks for everyone. But realizing it and stopping is good? Know thyself I guess? Even if I don’t act on it I still feel it but not buying into it definitely better in the long run.
— Odysseus Elytis (via theperfumemaker)
Do. Not. Fucking. Touch. Me. If you do it one more time I’m going to snap off your fingers.
I LOVE MY JOB it’s corny but it doesn’t feel like work it feels like im fucking around in a lab and getting paid hourly for it
I️ kinda hate where I’m at right now. As soon as I wake up and as I️ go through my day I️ calculate what’s between me and the next time I️ can sleep instead of enjoying things.
I️ don’t really feel depressed but then i notice things like this lol. I’m fine but I’m also symptomatic as hell (it’s weeeeeeiiiirrrddd)
that is the LAST time I suggest doing something. Good lord. She’s so annoying. All she talks about are her exes and how hard her life is. I mean she’s like that sober but its a WHOLE other level when we’re drunk and I don’t have the patience for it after so many hours. Especially because whenever I say anything she replies “I’m not drunk enough to deal with you” (for real she said that whenever I would talk about something that wasn’t her and it REALLY pissed me off). I don’t really care about this relationship anymore. I’m probably going to quit this group. It feels too showboaty. It feels fake. I don’t need it anymore and I don’t need anyone in it either, not the way I used to. I’m just trying to decide if I actually want it.
